I want snow

Vreau sa vina iarna. Sa fie totul alb cum n-a mai fost de ani de zile, si peste tot sa vad luminite. Vreau sa ascult colinde si sa beau ciocolata calda. Sa ma plimb prin centrul orasului si sa adun fulgi de zapada in palma. Vreau sa ma infofolesc bine cand ies din casa, si sa scot aburi cand suflu : )

Vreau sa vina vacanta. Sa vina ziua mea, sa vina Craciunul. Vreau sa beau vin fiert cu cei dragi, sa ne uitam la filme vechi si sa ascultam Frank Sinatra si Edith Piaf. Sa simt in aer mirosul de portocale si scortisoara.

Vreau sa pot oferi toata iubirea pe care o am, sa impart zambete si rasete cu cei pe care ii ador. Vreau sa pot uita pentru cateva momente de ce se intampla in jur, si sa ma cufund intr-o dulce utopie…

 

Friendship

Imi faceam putina curatenie prin calculator, si am dat peste un document cu niste chestii foarte interesante despre prietenie. Chestii pe care le-am salvat acum vreo 2 ani jumate… Atunci cand am descoperit ce inseamna cu adevarat prietenia. M-au impresionat foarte tare, si vreau sa le pun si aici.

You know you have a friend for life when they answer the phone at one in the morning because you can’t sleep and have a lot on your mind, and they don’t mind talking about nothing to get your mind off everything.
They spare some time to spend with you.
When you know that if something bad happened to you they’d be there for you, no questions asked.
When you can look at them when something is wrong and they know it just by the look in their eyes and all they have to do is offer a hug and you feel a thousand times better.
When you know that they’d never lie to you, and would never hurt you and if they did it would only be for your betterment.
They can make you laugh when skies are the darkest, and they’re there with a good movie and some popcorn when you’re totally depressed.
And even if you’re a thousand miles apart, it doesn’t matter because what you share with this friend is so much deeper then what lies on top that distance plays no role in your friendship.

Friendship is when they push when you need it, but never too hard; and stand back when the time is right but never too far.
And the true test of friendship is if you’re willing to do it all back in a heartbeat.
When your life is so much better because you know them, and they bring out the best that lies within.

A Good Friend

In kindergarden your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In primary school your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the bathroom with you; held your hand as you walked through the scary halls; helped you stand up to the class bully; shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours on the bus; saved a seat on the back of the bus for you; knew who you had a crush on and never understood why.

In secondary school your idea of a good friend was the person who let you copy their social studies homework; went to that “cool” party with you so you wouldn’t wind up being the only freshie there; did not let you lunch alone.

In pre-university your idea of a good friend was the person who gave you rides in their new car; convinced your parents that you shouldn’t be grounded; consoled you when you broke up with Nick or Susan; found you a date to the prom or went to the prom with you (both without dates); helped you pick a university and assured you that you would get into that university; helped you deal with your parents who were having a hard time letting you go.

On the threshold of adulthood your idea of a good friend was the person who was there when you just couldn’t deal with your parents; assured you that now that you and Nick or you and Susan were back together, you could make it through anything; just silently hugged you as you looked through blurry eyes at 18 years of memories; and reassured you that you would make it in university as well as you had these past 18 years; and most importantly sent you off to university knowing you were loved.

Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person who gives you the better of the two choices, hold your hand when you’re scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly loves you!

Si ceva care imi place foarte mult:

What I’ve Learned About Friendship

• I’ve learned that there are many good friends around, but true best friends are hard to come by.
• I’ve learned that sometimes you love a best friend more than a boyfriend.
• I’ve learned that a best friend is more important than a boyfriend.
• I’ve learned that you can do something or nothing with a best friend and still have the best time.
• I’ve learned that a true friendship has many memories, both good and bad, but all important.
• I’ve learned that sometimes the most used part of a best friend is the shoulder you cry on, and the shoulder you are willing to lend.
• I’ve learned that when a best friend is happy, you find yourself happy too, even when it has nothing to do with you.
• I’ve learned that a best friend’s family soon feels like your own.
• I’ve learned that the only one who truly understands is a true friend.
• I’ve learned that nothing ever sounds stupid, funny, or unbelievable to a best friend, and you never feel stupid saying whatever it is.
• I’ve learned that sometimes it feels like a best friend is the only one who will ever care about you and think you are beautiful in your own way.
• I’ve learned that you always have that something extra to give to a best friend in need, and can count on that in return.
• I’ve learned that your heart is forever touched by a true friend, no matter how things end up.
• I’ve learned that when your heart has been broken, a best friend is the best band-aid for it.
• I’ve learned that a best friend will call you in the middle of the night to talk without thinking, and it’s OK.
• I’ve learned that in many cases, a hug and a kind word from a best friend is the only thing that helps get you through the day.
• I’ve learned that a best friend would stick up for you no matter what the consequences are.
• I’ve learned that best friends can sing at the top of their lungs and not worry about singing the wrong words or being out of tune.
• I’ve learned that best friends stay up all night and on the phone for hours talking without even realizing it.
• I’ve learned that a best friend can tell the difference between a silly crush, and more than that.
• I’ve learned that sometimes a best friend is all you have.
• I’ve learned that sometimes you wonder how she knew, but then you realize that’s just how close you are.
• I’ve learned that when you are true best friends, everyone else knows it.
• I’ve learned that, most importantly of all, best friends will always be best friends, no matter what is happening in their lives, where they are, or what they are doing. A best friend is irreplaceable. This is the most important thing I could have ever been taught by a best friend.

Oh time, how it goes by…

Azi am fost la gara. De fapt, ajung destul de des pe la gara. Cam o data pe saptamana… Nu, nu calatoresc atat de des prin tara, ci doar ma duc sa beau o cafea sau o ciocolata calda la Gregory’s si sa imi mai limpezesc gandurile. There is no travelling involved. Apropos, cafeaua de la Gregory’s e BESTIALA! the best coffee in town : )

Si, dupa cum spuneam, si in seara asta am ajuns in gara, cu o prietena. Dupa ce ne-am baut cafeaua, ne-am gandit noi sa ne mai plimbam pe acolo. Ne-am indreptat spre un peron care era destul de plin de oameni, si am mers pe el ca sa intram in feeling-ul ala misto de plecare. Si totusi, ca sa ne simtim si mai bine, am decis sa urcam intr-un tren care se pregatea sa plece in Botosani (n-am ajuns niciodata acolo). Si ne-am plimbat prin vagoane putin, am intrat intr-un compartiment, am reflectat o vreme la conditiile groaznice din trenurile noastre, dupa care am coborat.

It was fun!

Mie gara intotdeauna mi-a trezit niste sentimente pe care nu prea pot sa le descriu asa cum ar trebui. La fel si aeroportul. In orice caz, sunt niste sentimente foarte tari, de bucurie, extaz, neliniste. E vorba de o stare de adrenalina, un simt de aventura, care apare atunci cand stiu ca urmeaza sa descopar lucruri si locuri noi. Iar in timp ce ma plimbam prin gara, mi-au venit in minte toate momentele pe care le-am petrecut in locul asta dubios, groaznic dar in acelasi timp frumos. Atatea intalniri, atatea plecari, atatea cafele baute la 6 dimineata… Simt ca o particica mica-mica din mine se afla acolo.

Si ma gandeam… Ma gandeam ca locul asta e plin de amintiri. Nu doar ale mele, ci ale milioanelor de oameni care au trecut pe acolo.

De ce suferim cateodata?

Da, sunt in moodul ala de a filosofa. Whatever… Am avut doua ore de filosofie, deci e de inteles.

Mai demult am ajuns la concluzia – mai bine zis, am constatat – ca doar persoanele pe care le iubim reusesc sa ne raneasca cu adevarat. Putem sa fim insultati de o persoana de pe strada si sa ne deranjeze chestia asta destul de tare, dar ranile cu adevarat adanci, care dor(la propriu), sunt creatiile persoanelor apropiate.

Si ideea este ca tu, in viata asta pe care o ai, lunga/scurta, optimista/pesimista, echilibrata/haotica, vei suferi. Nu tot timpul. Dar vor fi destule momente cand se va intampla asta. Pentru ca esti, asa cum a zis Aristotel, “zoon politikon”, si traiesti inconjurat de oameni. Oameni cu care nu ai nicio legatura, si oameni care fac parte din viata ta de zi cu zi si cu care ai construit diverse tipuri de relatii.

Care ar fi alternativa? Pai sa nu te mai atasezi de oamenii din jurul tau. Doar ca e putin cam complicat sa faci chestia asta, si oricum viata fara iubire nu are sens, asa ca o sa o lasi balta.

Concluzia este ca ar cam trebui sa te obisnuiesti cu ideea ca cei dragi te vor rani din cand in cand, iar tu ii vei rani la randul tau, din cand in cand. De cele mai multe ori probabil fara sa vreti. Daca ai trai fara sa suferi, nu ai aprecia la valoarea lor toate momentele de fericire pe care viata ti le ofera.

Ce ar trebui sa faci atunci cand esti ranit? Pai… trage aer adanc in piept, gandeste-te ca viata e frumoasa si ca totul e trecator, si lasa-te in voia durerii pana cand nu mai simti nimic. Cu timpul, rana se va cicatriza, si chiar daca inca e acolo, macar va fi protejata de ce se intampla in jurul ei. Iar dupa inca o vreme, nu va mai ramane decat un semn neclar, dovada ca ai trait si ai iubit cu adevarat – dovada pe care doar tu o vei cunoaste. Resemneaza-te cu faptul ca nimeni nu e perfect, si gresim de foarte multe ori de-a lungul vietii. Cel mai important lucru e sa invatam din greselile pe care le facem, pentru ca doar asa putem creste.

Si inca un lucru, la fel de important: invata sa ierti… Nu aduna in tine remuscari si nici repulsii, caci ele nu vor face decat sa te traga inapoi.

Smile and think about tomorrow. It will be better.

Claaaar

Ma trezesc eu frumos la ora 9 dimineata, imi iau castronul in care imi pun laptele si cerealele, si ma indrept spre calculator cu intentia de a-mi verifica mailul si de a termina niste chestii incepute zilele trecute. Foarte dragut.

Totul merge bine pana cand intru pe mail si vad acolo ca subiect al mesajului primit de la 9a.m. (site cu stiri): “Romania a implinit 1 an de criza”.

Ok. Stai sa procesam informatia. Deci pam pam, Romania, criza economica mondiala, tanana, 1 an de zile. Wow….

Hai frate! Pe bune acum. Chiar in halul asta sa ajungi, sa scrii despre aniversarea crizei financiare in Romania?! Am uitat sa precizez ca sub titlu troneaza o poza cu o briosa cu o lumanare in varf, pe un fundal negru. Foarte… trist, sa zicem. Dar cred ca ’stupid’ e cuvantul cel mai potrivit.

Am ramas vreo 5 minute uitandu-ma la titlu si experimentand diferite senzatii. Mai intai ‘I laughed myself to tears’, dupa care am ramas blocata cateva secunde, urmand sa deschid mailul cu dezgust sa vad daca e si ceva plauzibil in el.

Dar totusi… Romania a implinit un an de criza?! Come on dude, give me a break. It’s one of the silliest pieces of news I’ve ever heard.

Ah, si exista si doua clipulete de pe youtube care iti explica fenomenul pe care noi se pare ca il numim criza creditelor. Cred ca aceste clipulete sunt singurele chestii cu rost din tot articolul (chiar daca putin sadice, in final), pentru ca asa poate sa inteleaga oricine ce s-a intamplat de fapt.

In orice caz, articolul se gaseste aici. Enjoy :>

Trips

La inceputul vacantei eram suparata pentru ca toata lumea pleca pe undeva, iar eu ramaneam in Bucuresti ca sa ma pregatesc pentru, respectiv sa dau, IELTS-ul. Dar mi-a trecut supararea (haha), pentru ca, dupa ce am luat examenul, am inceput si eu sa hoinaresc…

Am fost mai intai la munte, apoi in Targu-Mures, in Delta si la mare. La noi la mare. In afara de weekendurile alea spontane petrecute in 2 Mai si in Vama, uitasem cum e sa mergi la mare in Romania. Dar – surprinzator – am fost destul de multumita. Sunt mai putine gunoaie pe plaja si in apa, si nu prea au mai ramas portiuni de plaja neamenajate (cu alte cuvinte, peste tot sunt umbrelute, sezlonguri si baruri). Trebuie sa recunoastem, e si asta un progres. Din fericire, nu prea am avut parte de alge in Jupiter, unde am stat. In schimb, in ultimele zile am  prins niste valuri bestiale, care m-au atras pentru ceva vreme in dezlantuirea Ei.

In Delta am ajuns direct de la mare. Am petrecut un weekend in linistea asurzitoare de aici, bucurandu-ma de fiecare raza ce se oglindea in apa, fiecare pelican care zbura cu eleganta in cautarea hranei, fiecare adiere a vantului sau fiecare nufar inflorit pe care l-am vazut. Si de prima stea cazatoare pe care am privit-o, pe terasa pontonului pe care am stat…

E superb in Delta.  A fost una dintre putinele ocazii in care am putut sa ma detasez cu adevarat de tot ce se intampla in viata mea, si sa traiesc clipa. Sa ma pierd in natura si sa contemplez fericirea care iti invaluie mintea, trupul si sufletul atunci cand patrunzi in acest univers.

Iar la Targu-Mures am fost pentru Coke Live. Am ajuns joi dimineata in oras, ne-am luat bratarelele pentru festival, am intrat in complex si ne-am apucat sa montam corturile. 4 scene. Standuri cu diverse. Un strand. Multe concerte. Multe corturi. Multa lume. Din ce in ce mai multa lume.

In prima seara am mers la Luna Amara, unde m-am simtit genial. Vineri am mers la Vama si Sarmalele Reci. Sambata la putin OCS (as in 3 melodii), Kumm,  Iris si Primal Scream, iar duminica la Vita si Timpuri Noi. Nope, n-am mai ajuns la Prodigy, pentru ca duminica a fost foarte frig toata ziua, iar pe seara chiar n-am mai rezistat asa ca m-am ascuns in cort in saculetul de dormit.

A fost foarte tare! Singurul lucru care mi-a displacut a fost ca la dusuri era apa rece. Rece!!! In prima zi m-am torturat cu drag, dupa care am gasit o idee mai buna: sa pun apa intr-un bidon de 5l si sa o las la soare. Trebuie sa mentionez ca dusul pe care l-am facut cu apa din bidon a fost aproape perfect. In rest, a trebuit sa ma obisnuiesc cu toaletele ecologice, pe care le mai vizitasem o singura data de-a lungul vietii, si fara a le si utiliza.

M-am distrat de minune in toate locurile in care am mers. Urmeaza Amsterdam.

Over the hills and far away

Oh yeah babe, that’s where I’m going. Mi s-a acrit de caldura din Bucuresti, si de foarte multe alte chestii de asemenea

Restul vacantei voi fi mai mult plecata. Unde? Prin Parang, pe la Targu-Mures si prin Amsterdam. Nu stiu cand o sa mai scriu aici, dar promit ca atunci cand se vor calma lucrurile voi povesti tot ce am facut in aceasta vara . Si tot ce va urma, probabil.

Pana una-alta, enjoy your vacation!

Oh, and remember it’s a wild world…